1 Month Old!

Happy 1 Month Kenzie Love!!

Things I have learned in the last month of this thing we call life:

*I've experienced childbirth and still to this day I believe it is what I was put on this earth to do.

*I realized that I have never quite loved another the way I love you more and more each and every day.

*I finally experienced what it means to care for a child 24.7. (and I enjoy every minute of it..even at 2 AM)

*I can say for certain I REALLY would love to stay at home with my baby everyday forever more.

(I'm not one of those mom's that needs a job to get out of the house alone for a couple hours)

*I've learned that there is not anything I wouldn't do for my little love. I will protect you as much as I possibly can.

*I will try and teach you everything I can. How to gurgle..how to cuddle...teach you about fashion..because your a mini fashionista already....teach you right from wrong...teach you that Jesus loves you more than mommy and daddy and how Glorious he is....teach you manners and when to listen to authority and maybe sometimes when to stand up against it..even if the authority is your dad and I...stand up for what you believe in baby girl....I will teach you that my love for you is and never will be conditional..you have my whole heart forever....

*I've learned the importance of family and how gracious their help is always. 

*I've learned that time is precious and I don't think I will ever have enough with you.

*I've learned how to change a diaper in the dark and how to sleep with one ear open.

*I've learned that no matter how many people tell you....you never know just how different life is. My life changed when my sweet baby was placed on my chest around 3:20 AM on Christmas Eve 2010. I will never be the woman I was before. I will forever be better for her and for her daddy. I became a new me. Mommy.

*I've learned that when they say you go through a lot of diapers.....you really do go through A LOT of diapers. 

*I've learned that shopping is not a leisurely activity anymore...it is a necessary thing when your clothes start to get to big or small...and you no longer try on clothes at the store..you eye them and decide if you think they will fit before the baby wakes up and starts crying.

*I've realized that not only did my love for you spring into existence on your birthday, but this whole new love that I have for your daddy came into existence that day also.

*I've learned that having surgery and then taking home a newborn to care for is practically impossible without a daddy for baby girl. (Thank you Lord for my wonderful husband)

*I've learned that it is not insane, as I once thought, to get pregnant again when your newborn is only 2 months old.

*She has confirmed the idea that I want lots of babies to birth and raise and love on.

*I've learned that 1 month can change your life..and Kenzie Love you have changed mine.

You have changed everything and I could not thank you enough for letting me be your mommy. I am so thankful the Lord picked me for you. I promise to make next month the best month of your life! Thank you for making my life the best life ever baby girl.

I love you.

Momma

12 Days Old~Kenzie Love Knutsen's Birth Story

Our hearts are overflowing. Our Love has finally arrived and Dad and Mom could not be in a more blissful state of mind. Kenzie Love Knutsen arrived on Dec. 24, 2010 at 3:12 AM. Weighing in at 6 lbs. 13 oz. and 20 in. long. We are in awe of the blessing that God has bestowed upon us and we cannot stop staring at the most BEAUTIFUL girl in the world. Here is the story of your birth my little Love.

It was Dec. 22 the day labor pains began, who would have thought your actual due date! The pains started in the middle of the night so by the time morning came around we got up and got ready to go to the hospital. Dad called into work and we sat and waited for the contractions to get worse. They seemed to be getting closer together so around 8:30 we headed to Hoag Hospital. We got there and got checked into a beautiful room! We were so excited! This was going to be the day we met you! So the nurse hooked me up to the contraction monitor and we sat there for an hour having pretty good contractions, however they weren't getting worse. So the nurse suggested we try and help it along by walking around the halls and bouncing on the exercise ball. So we tried all those things for 2 hours...the contractions stayed the same. :O( The nurse got a hold of Dr. Lee and was told to discharge us since the labor wasn't progressing. Mom and Dad were very bummed to be heading home! 

This leads us to Wed. Dad got up and went to work and Mom was up and waiting for Auntie Brit and Uncle Kelby to get home. They were driving home from Vegas to spend a couple days here for Christmas and they were hoping you would make your arrival while they were here! When they got home I asked them if they would go on a walk with me around the lake. As we were walking the contractions started coming pretty regularly again. Kelby was in shock. I tried to explain that they needed to be way worse for it to be actual labor. So we got home from the walk and Dad was home about 20 minutes later. He had a half day at work. So we laid on our bed trying to just deal with the contractions. Meanwhile, Julie Sherburne had asked us to go to dinner with her and the family at Flemings and of course we said YES! So about 4 o'clock we started getting ready for dinner, the contractions were hurting pretty bad at this point, but I was not going to have another false alarm so we were going to wait until I was screaming in pain to go back to the hospital. So we started driving to the Sherburne's and about 5 minutes down the road I looked at your dad and said, "I think we are going to the hospital and not to Flemings." He was a bit disappointed, but said we should wait until after we got gas to call Julie and cancel. Well, at the gas station the hard contractions hit and that was it, we were having a baby! The drive to the hospital was HARD! I was in so much pain that I was crying. I called both of our moms and told them that this was going to be it. We made our way up to labor and delivery and as the nurses saw us coming in they could tell that I was in labor. They got me set up in a room and our nurse Hillary said she would get us admitted ASAP. She checked me out and said that I was still 3 cm, same as yesterday, however I was now 80% effaced. She could tell that I was in pain so she called the doctor on call and he admitted me! Now we could get an epidural!!! It saved my life baby girl! The epidural was in within 20 minutes and about 10 minutes after that they broke my water. This was truly going to be the day and I was sooooo excited! There were lots of family members in and out of the labor and delivery room visiting with us since it took about 7 hours of being on pitocin for me to reach complete and be ready to push. But, finally the time came and we started pushing with our new night nurse Suzanne. We would push in sets of 3 with an extra credit push if I could muster one up. We pushed for about an hour and every time I would push your little heart rate would drop. The nurse didn't seem to worried, but about an hour in to pushing she decided to call the doctor since you were crowning. The doctor was there within 15 minutes and was ready to see me push. We gave him one set of 3 pushes and he looked up at me and your Dad and said,"Hunny, your going to have to have a C-section. Hasn't anyone told you your birth canal is way to small to deliver a baby?' Needless to say, everyone in the room was in shock and awe. A C-section had never even passed through our head! So we looked at each other and looked at the doctor and said, "Your the doctor do what is best." And then we were headed to the OR and an hour later, you were here! Almost immediately after you were born they brought you over to me and I got to hold you for the first time. I thought I was in heaven. You were perfect babygirl! After they cleaned you up they took you upstairs to the nursery to monitor your heart since you were having a slight murmur, but by the time they got you up the elevator they said it had cleared up. Praise God! They kept you up there though all through night watching your blood sugar and your tempature. Finally, around 11:30 AM on Christmas Eve they brought you to our room. We finally had you for good in our arms forever. And that little girl is the story of your birthday. The best day of my life thus far. You are all of my dreams come true and I promise to love you forever, no matter WHAT! Never forget that! As I type this, you lay sleeping sound like an Angel. By the way, we took you to the doctors the day after you came home for small check-up and asked the pediatrician about a small red mark on the corner of your eyelid. She said it was a birth mark that would only last about 2 years called an Angels Kiss, because an Angel kissed you on the way out. You are so sweet baby and I can't wait for the coming days to watch you grow! 

I love you with all my heart,

Momma